an ayu quote

from ayu's TA post yesterday

私達は、ひとりきりで生まれて、ひとりきりで死んで行く。それは、変わらない事実。

in english:
We are born alone, and we're going to die alone. These are facts that will not change.


see....
i'm always so lonely, there isn't anyone who truly stand by me. no true friends and my parent don't really understand my feelings. They had treat me well, but they lack the ability to see that their daughter isn't so right....


what will happen after i die? where would i go?
am i still alone, even till the end?

ayu had been with me, but for how long can she be guiding me? ayu is just a role model, not my friend nor family. i can't talk to her.

her words are my guidance and like a bible

i feel peaceful with her music/performance.

Speaking of which, i had just paid USD$39 for shipping of my NL stuff. I just knew i will feel happy when i open my musical box and that ship. i can't wait to get it~