~kitties~ *meow*

i just got these 2 cute kitties!



no, they are not real, it's the Mc Donald's Hello Kitty toy, i force mum to eat Happy Meal for dinner with me just now. coz i want them, and there are just too many designs so i pick the pink ones out first.

*presenting my new babies*



year 2005




year 1993





n my new manga which i just bought from kino

Ouran Koukou Host Club volume 14, taiwan version
MonMon Sept issue (bought it bcoz of Selena sensei's new series)





at orchard today

U know who you are

yeah, read THAT!

sorry to dissappoint u, but i'm still alive and kicking.

don't think i'm a fool, well genie aren't a loser, death is nothing to me, having escape from it when i was 15 years old, so this is nothing to me.

death is surely NOT on my fear list, get your homework done!

p.s don't mess with me!

still alive

still alive...



from [a song for xx]

How long can I be a child?
Where did I come running from
And how far will I run?

The sun is rising, I have to go soon
I can't stay long in one place

I had been thinking that trusting someone results in
Being betrayed and rejected some day


I was born alone and would live alone
I thought it was certainly natural for me to live in such a way

A Song for ×× (New Vocal & Mix) - Ayumi Hamasaki - 浜崎あゆみ

Birthday Gift From Karen

in the mailbox today.

i already expect that she might be getting me the Stay with me single, but the mousepad is a surprise.

this is my first gift from a friend this year, the others are just an angbao from dad and anna tsuchiya's cd from sis.
a very lonely brthday year, i don't have friends with me, after i resign and i don't feel like bothering them with my troubles, so i doubt they will remember my birthday

i should be used to this, afterall i was always lonely since a small kid to secordary sch years...but i think my years in COURTS has been too happy, with people around me. now that i'm not working, i'm alone again and.....feeling so unhappy right now....

lost

what am i living for?

a life without a life...



i feel nothing.
even with my birthday this sunday, i should be happy, but it just feels like another sunday to me.

what should i be doing?
Who is the real me?

i can't recall how the real me is like? i had been doing stuff because people said so, what do i really want?

i can't find an explanation for my tears.

New CD

arrive from yesasia yesterday




alan - 心的東方
ayu- Arena Tour 03-04 DVD, OS version

~倖田來未 [3 Splash]~

Arrive from Yesasia yesterday




倖田來未 [3 Splash] Single, limited edition with a pouch.

so cute, (^0^)
but i don't like the 4 holes at the top, so dorky looking~(>_<)


now i'm ONLY waiting for

Yesasia
alan [心的東方]album
Ayu's Countdown Live 04-05 Concert DVD

CdJapan
Ayu's [Sunrise/Sunset-Love is All~]CD+DVD

AND i must remind myself, NO MORE PURCHASE!!!! (=_=)

~Team Ayu Mag 24.25~

arrive today!
I just collect it from my mailbox an hour ago~







inside pics

july flu

hu hu....

i'm having a running nose, now my left nose is block...so difficult to breath!
i had been taking medicine for 3 days, but it's not any better!

come on! i hate running nose, it irks me at night!

i can't sleep properly at all, kept waking up!


here's my new Haruhi book i bought from kino yesterday. i used my commision from the I.T, which i just collect yesterday

［凉宫春日的动摇］

just a little cough

Arrive from ebay today

TeamAyu mag volume 31
Countdown Live 00-01-JP version DVD

now that i got the dvd, i had put up my vcd to sell at AHS, along with other ayu's extras cd and kuu's [It's All Love]poster.

I just went to see the doctor 2 hours ago, having a slight cough.
It should be nothing serious, but u will never know. Sis's friend is now in hospital, under suspect of H1N1 and she saw her last sat, i was there too.
Sis had been coughing since sun...hmmm....hopes it's really nothing.

ピンク~nails

yay, sucess.
i had this nail polish for a while, but the color never mix well to be so glittery.

finally i got it! yesterday actually....

woo~~~


should i add some stars on it??? できるか???

early birthday gift from my sis

wee~~~ it just arrive 30 mins ago~

Anna Tsuchiya [Brave vibration] CD+DVD. there's a promo poster too.

I really like this single, so i ask sis to get it as my b-day gift! ha ha! yay~~~
now, if only i'll have the cd only too.....the cover is really nice!

Front n back





booklet pics







Poster

My birthday Gift List

so i'm very broke this month....

but money will never drop from the sky....

and i really want these, so what's better then to list them down n see if any nice fellow who remember me, MIGHT get it for me???
don't worry, i'm not killing anyone pockets, i'm not asking for branded stuff, that's too much. none of the following costs more then $40 each!

afterall my birthday is on 26th july~~~

alan 《心的东方 CD+DVD》, hongkong press(release on 10th July)
Boys Over Flowers[Korean version] Full Set DVD

can be found in hmv local stores
anna tsuchiya's [Brave vibration]CD only, japan press(japan release on 1st july)
Koda Kumi 3 Splash CD only, japan press(japan release on 8th july)

From Sophie Kinsella
Shopholic and Baby novel
Can You Keep A Secret?

Oxford Japanese Course

yes! i did a check on the internet today and found it.

Basic lvl: $315.65
Intermediate lvl: $369.15
Advance lvl: $422.65

it does not state the school terms, timing.
there's a small tiny map, it looks like location is in Cityhall.

i had send in a registration and wait for them to call me.

hmm..money is a problem...have to think of a way.

finally, they came~~~~

arrive yesterday!






bigger pics of the ayupan and keychain,
ship and musical box later.






and the boxes

lonely

why am i always alone?

why do i have to carry all the burden?

why there's no end to my troubles?

why do i miss him so much?

why do i rely so much on him?

why do the tears came at night?

why isn't there anyone who understand me?

why is there no answers to my 'why'?