lost

i wonder how long can i go on like this...


being missunderstood...


getting hurt, but have to wear a mask to hide


i don't feel like myself anymore


tried to help, but backfire

if i don't do or say anything, i'm taken for granted and end up getting wronged/blamed for...


there's a never a line to differ right or wrong.


what should i do


lost

Cure Deco from Hunny Co

foud this great site this morning!

look their their deco works!





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not to love

not to hurt my loved ones, i rather not get too close to people, not falling in love again is on the top of my list.

not to hurt myself when people leave, i would rather not get too close to people...


to live is a pain

lust/jeolousy/greed/pride/slotch.... i had enough.


when my mum reaches her last breath, i'll have no more ties.

I'll follow my mum.

fool? or not.

it's been 2 months since i last posted

so many things had happen...

11th mar, tsunami/earthquake in japan

lives were lost,
hearts were broken,
tears shred,
hopes were shattered


lost of a friend...


i had been thinking...
what should i be doing


instead of just staying here and doing nothing


so i made my decision



but whatever i am doing, people are objecting. or doubting me.

all i want is to help.


is it wrong being selfless?

どしてだまいですか。
わたしは絆おしんじてる。

jena...

i still can't believe that jena is leaving....


her last day is this friday


there will be a farewell party, at PartyWorld near Sim Lim Square


sobs


now the office will be only left with Faith, the ONE AND ONLY QV girl

Alan [Premium & Best] Album

First greatest hits album release from alan including "Asu e no Sanka," "Kuon no Kawa," "Kanashimi wa Yuki ni Nemuru," and more for 14 songs total. This edition includes a bonus CD with six songs containing new songs, "Wasurenaide," and "Ai wa Chikara" (subject to change) and a bonus DVD with 14 music videos. Also includes a 40-page photo book and a desktop calendar. *Unless otherwise indicated, DVDs are region-2 encoded (Japan, Europe, and Middle East), and carry no subtitles.


alan初のBEST ALBUM!! 初回限定盤は、デビュー曲「明日への讃歌」から映画『レッドクリフ』の全世界主題歌「久遠の河」、最新SINGLE「悲しみは雪に眠る」までの14曲のシングルをコンプリートした[DISC-1]。さらに、新録の4曲に加え、S'capadeにVocalistとして参加した「忘れないで」(ボーナス・トラック)、alan×福井敬としてオペラに挑戦した「愛は力」を収録した6曲 (予定)入りのMINI ALBUM [DISC-2]と、14曲のvideo Clipを収録したDVDの3枚組。PHOTO BOOK (40P)、卓上カレンダー同梱。豪華スペシャルパッケージ、ピクチャーレーベル仕様。




Tracklisting
1. 明日への讃歌
2. ひとつ
3. 懐かしい未来 ～longing future～
4. 空唄
5. 風の手紙
6. RED CLIFF ～心・戦～
7. 恵みの雨
8. 群青の谷
9. 久遠の河
10. BALLAD ～名もなき恋のうた～
11. Swear
12. Diamond
13. 風に向かう花
14. 悲しみは雪に眠る
15. (予定情報)他 全14曲収録予定


2CD+DVD limited edition


2CD+DVD regular edition



CD only

after weeks...

shu shu turn fatter within 2 weeks...

while konnie looks so small beside him!


konnie peeking out of the log house



shushu! what a big fat ball of fur he is!



konnie!!!!! what are you trying to do!!! he gave me a heart attack when i saw this!

soooo scary!

i thought he was caught in between the log house and the cage!!!




after he manage to walk out, he look at me

and copy'cat' my emo look.

bling bling ruler!

wa hahahah

i just deco my ruler!

I spend like 1 hour on it!

it was originaly a kuromi ruler, but i went to put crystals and deco parts on it.

so it turn into a cute gingerbreadman ruler, with apple, doughnuts, cake and a [g] logo!

i bought the G logo at [mini toon] yesteray.

Ayu n Mannie in singapore!!!

NOOOOO!!!!!!!!!

Mannie postd this just now at twitter!




they were at SINGAPORE CHANGI AIRPORT TERMINAL 3!!!!!!!!!

i would recognise it anywhere!!!!

*cries*

why am i not working in the airport anymore!!!!

i would chase after the terminals to find Ayu!!!!

she's just sooooo near!!!!!!!!!

but it's the transit area!!!!!!!!!!

OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!

hopfully simon sees her at T1 and get photo for me.


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so sad....


super sad....


she's in singapore....
in singapore....

in singapore....


at the airport where i USED to work....

(T_T)


sobssssssss

Translation: ALAN THE WORLD (anecam magazine)

Credits to tenshi no hane


ALAN THE WORLD

Singer and AneCan model alan: her present, past & future.

My family consists out of my father, mother, big brother and me. My father is kind; he’s like a friend to me. My mother gets worried easily. And she’s also kind of scary (laughs).

When I was a real tomboy and about to enter elementary school, I injured the palm of my right hand and needed to get 22 stitches. It was a really big wound. It should’ve hurt but I didn’t feel any pain. It was a strange feeling. When I showed my wound, my mother got realllllly mad and hit me. My father started crying. His face was sopping wet with tears and his nose was running. He was a mess. My father held me the entire time while I got my stitches in the hospital. He seemed to be in more pain than me and he kept on crying.

I have grown into more of an adult since then. To me, ‘no longer getting injured’ equals ‘turning into an adult’. Because I don’t want to make my parents worry about me.

When I went to Tokyo at 20 years old, my parents were really worried. When I first went to Japan - before my debut - my mother came along with me. Some time later, in August 2007, I went to Japan by myself. At first I lived in a monthly apartment of only 18 square meters! Girls have lots of luggage, right? But I didn’t have enough space for all my things. I stuck it out for about a year and a half in that room. If I hold on, my room will become wider and bigger. That gives me a sense of accomplishment. I have currently moved to a slightly bigger room. My mother recently came to see my room for the first time, but it seems she had pictured a slightly bigger room (laughs). The fact that my previous room was only 18 square meters would just worry her.... so I definitely can’t tell her.

Since I entered in junior high school, my mother and I lived in Beijing and my father and brother stayed in our home town to work, so we were far apart. I am constantly wishing that someday our entire family can live in the same house. I think I will also have a husband and kid(s) at that time.

When you’re in love, I think a partner that’s the same age as you is nice. But if I’m looking for a husband, I think a person that’s a bit older than me would be better. To be blunt, if it was a guy of my age, he would want to play around more, right? And I would also want to play around. But if he was an older person, he might not play around that much anymore? I think he would really cherish family. I wonder if there are a lot of young people that are like that?

Love is important. Marriage? Someday. But what’s most important right now is to let much more people hear my music! ....Also because I want to get a bigger room (laughter).

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Genie's note: the bold part is what i feel about relationships/marriage too. that is why i can't find myself trsting guys of my age...