can't seem to cheer up
..........
nights and nights,
waking up in tears, nightmares of dad suffering....
i saw him....
asking why didn't anyone stop him from taking too many medicine years ago
saying that he was torture by the nurses
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what should i do?
i feel so uneasy....
now i know how sis feel, during her 21st birthday....
my first birthday without dad....
can i just bury a hole and hide myself in?
i don't wanna see anyone....
the last thing i want to hear is happy birthday...
the happiness i had In Tokyo seem to drain away, as days gets closer, nothing seem to cheer me up. Even receiving my cds from the mail made me happy, but this morning, i was like, 'oh.... my kuu cd came....'
THAT'S IT??????????????
what's wrong with me???
I always look forward to go to office for meeting, it's fun there, with all the blickering, feels like a family. but... i don't know.... somehow
I was looking so forward to getting my Liz Lisa clothes in the mail, i was even tracking them everyday. that is my top favorite brand and i was quite happy when i foind a online shop for shibuya109!!!! but when the postman send them to me on Monday, somehow i feel empty....
whatever i'm doing, always don't turn out right
what am i living for?
It will get better.
ReplyDeleteIf you feel like you're not coping, I recommend you talk to a counsellor. It's not a bad thing. No-one can solve everything by themselves.
You are living to be awesome, and from what I can see you're doing a good job of it, so don't worry.